guys im back...

sorry...but im really at a loss for words...because there is too much things for me to say... im really going crazy... i flunked yet another test even though i studied hard and tried my best... odds are im gonna fail my modules.. cant really comphrehend why... shuldnt have got into this course...i got no real friends there.. i feel so lonely... all friends went to the other poly...this poly is just so dull and lifeless.... its no wonder i skipped so many classes...i nearly got debarred from exam... i hate myself for being such a failure... i dunno how am i gonna survive another 3 yrs there... life really sucks... if only i had gone 2 greener pastures..

i once thought im strong emotionally... but realised after all this while i am but weak inside...life is just so lonely and quiet after the people closest to me left 1 by 1... there is no 1 i could talk to...no 1 to share my moments of happiness and sadness together... just why? why am i so weak? why cant i smile like before? God.. tell me why..

[[im sorry that i hurt you...
there's so many things i wish to say to you
but its so hard..
so hard to live life without you
im sorry that i once asked you to do something
that even i now cant accomplish..
its not that i dont want to let you go
its because i have to stick to my promise...
that i will be ur guardian angel
no matter what happens..
i will always be here by your side
but now u feel so suffocated...
i will let you go...
and just standby and watch
but promise me u must be happy....]]

i wish for you to be happy
just wanna remain as mutual friends wif you
justlikebefore...
William Killed Himself on... | 6:55 AM |